i have been sick for quite a good amount of days and i havent been putting 100 percent in my work its really hard when i am sick but i am trying to do my best and get rest. Today i was really pissed because we all had to redo our scales and i was working on a new value scale and I screwed up again it took the entire class. Then at the end of class my teacher tells me i have a 67 on my paper cut out and i was so angry because i worked my ass off on it and i was sick as a dog at that time. All i wanted to do was rest but i had to work so i did now i have to redo it and its due next tuesday and my new value scale is due on thursday. Tomorrow i have an essay exam in english from 11 to 1150 thats not nearly enough time to finish 2 essays im nervous as shit. i hate being timed to do things like that, but i have to. When i came home from class i broke down and cried, ive been trying so hard lately and i feel like its not good enough, but im exausted and sick and im trying to get better too. I was staring into space earlier in lunch and i just was thinking about how much work i had to do and i was frustrated, right now im laying in bed on my computer because im so tired but im still doing what i have to do and its not easy being sick and working.
